Don't grow up it's a trap.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I had this whole plan in my head when I was younger at 30 I was supposed to have owned my own home, had one or two kids, married and a great job in London (not a clue what that job was but I could picture myself there!) I have learnt recently that I am not the only one who hasn't figured it out yet, so many of us are floating through life not knowing which path to take and I am here to say its ok! What has really helped me recently is to make a list of everything I don't want and work which will help narrow down things that you do! This resulted in after 10 years pretty much leaving a business I have worked my butt off for, I was in love with this business and everything it stood for but the problem with being self employed is no one cares when you go. Its not like your typical 9/5 job when you leave you get presents and good wishes for your next venture. Self employed work is just what it says on the tin.. YOURSELF. This hurt my heart more than anything something I had spilled my heart and soul in for years to rip me apart when I left and make me feel so insignificant is something I don't think I will ever forgive. And even though I didn't leave completely the way they made me feel was like there was no such thing as team, a family, a sisterhood.

As long as you follow your heart it will always lead you in the right direction and its like my world has now opened up again and I can breathe once more. I was suffocating and I didn't know it. So my words of wisdom today after all my ramblings is: Take the leap, write a list of everything you don't want in your life and if it tells you to head down another direction... DO IT. You have nothing to lose but you could gain happiness!